Another Night Awake

I wish I could tell you how mad I am at you. I wish I could explain and scream it all out of my system. I'm tired of you making me cry myself to sleep or crying, stealing my sleep. I hate that I am so drawn in by you. I hate that you suck me in. I'm so mad at our situation. People, like you and me, don't come into your life very often...when you can be honest, real, trusting. If only you would learn how to come talk to me instead of your constant silence and avoidance of our madness. So many things that if talked through would be better. But you don't talk, you ignore and avoid...allowing me to stay in my silent pain. I want to share with you, but you turn me away. You want to share with me, and I'm sucked in...unable to turn away. When can we talk about what matters. Tired of these unspoken screams of anger and sadness I have towards you. You are the closest person to me but stay so far away.