Jagdish sent me this email... He asked me not read it because he sent it in anger and apologized for all that he had said. Here's what he wrote:
"When I was deleting you from my friends list then I got to read your messages on your board. So I thought to clear few basics –
1) I am a very down to earth, simple and straight forward guy. There is nothing complex in me and I am enjoying the simplicity in my life.
2) I am 28 years old and have gone through lots of things in life so I know that to have a simple life is better than anything else.
3) By nature, by education and by profession, I am an engineer. So it makes me very much goal or output-oriented in any stage or step of life.
4) I have deep respect for any kind of job which provides me food to eat. I consider work a “prayer”. And this is the reason that I hate people (including myself) whenever they are late or not serious about their job. Just imagine yourself with no job in this hard economy time.
5) I have Bachelor degree in metallurgical engineer and master in chemical engineering. I am working for a one of the fortune 500 companies which is also the world’s largest Gold producing company. Why I am telling this because of my last point in the email.
6) I sent you flowers which cost me around 91 dollars to show my “seriousness” towards you.
7) I wanted and almost made you my “necessity” but you made me your “option” by going out with all kind of men. The weird part is that you are going out with all these people at the same time which does not bother me but shows me that you are not serious at all.
8) My philosophy about love is – “There should be love in relationship but relationship should not be started from love.” The reason for this is that you can fall in love infinite number of times in your life. Does it mean that you are going to have infinite number of wives/husbands?
9) You want me to be better than Adi or anyone else you are dating. Or in other words, you want me to fight for you. Or try to be something else which i am not. I am more than happy to fight for you at any step of life only after marriage. But before marriage, I will not fight (spending time to attract you and trying to be something which I am not) for you or anyone else. Instead of spending time to attract you, I would like to spend time reading “Money” Magazine or some certification courses. This was the main reason that why I got upset when you wrote that I could make you forget Adi.
10) Now, I see that you have a huge friend base. So I would request if you can put this email on your online journal and face book and let your friends read it. Some of your female friends may be single and of around my age. I would like to meet them if they are interested.
Thanks for reading this
Best
Jagdish"
I, of course read it and here was my reply:
"I know you don't me not to read this...but you know I was going to anyways. So, I'm not mad at all....it actually takes me a lot to be mad at someone. But, I do we need to address some of these issues. Even though you said that you said them out of anger...these are real concerns for you. So, I will address them.
1. I see that you are a simple guy. However, you are a very serious guy it seems...maybe takes things a little too serious for me. But, I understand that is what makes you who you are and as successful as you are.
2. We all have gone through a lot of things in our lives. I do agree that a simple life is best....but what that simple life is can be different to different people. To me...I live the simple life....it's only filled with work, church, family, and friends. I only do those things that are important to me....and don't sweat the small stuff....to me that is living a simple life.
3. It's okay to be goal oriented, etc..... again, that is what has made you so successful in life as you are. But, when dealing with a person directly...that can come across as using a person as a means to an end. Be careful with that.
4. I am extremely grateful for my job. I am very good with what I do and I have a huge respect for it. However, there are things that you don't know about me that make my mornings very difficult for me. My employer is aware of this to a point and they have chosen to overlook it...because when it comes down to it...I get my job done and go far above what is expected from me. I do not like being late to work...but have not completely taken the steps to overcome my morning issues completely.... I plan on and have a plan to deal with those issues...but haven't implemented them because of certain reasons that I won't discuss. I am a VERY independent person...and even my parents have never really ever told me what to do or lecture me about things I do....they always let me deal with my own issues and face whatever rewards or consequences that my come. So, when I am talked to like a child...I don't take that lightly...because even as a child I wasn't talked to like that.
5. Your job is not who you are. Yeah...who you are has made you a success at what you do. But, that should not be a saling point for someone to love you or not.
6. Monetary gifts do not mean anything to me....yes, they are nice to get. Yes, the flowers were beautiful and I loved them. But, the fact that you spent money on me means very little. Anyone can buy me flowers... but it is that person that can show me love...not things....that will capture my heart. Yes, capture...because my heart is mine...and not just anyone that shows me they can be a great potential husband and provider can take that away from me. There has to be an emotional and spiritual connection there....and that can not be done through a computer or monetary gifts.
7. All these men....lol. Yes...I have been talking to several men...but I have only gone out on a date with two of them. One of them only for coffee and I've stopped talking to him. And then Adi....gone on two dates. I have never dated until now....so this is all really new to me. I am not dating just to go out and have fun. The first sign that the guy is not what I want in a husband...I immediately stop talking to him. I do not believe in dating multiple people and just going out and having fun. I am looking for a meaningful relationship. I'm sorry if you think that I should only be talking to one person at a time...but if that was the case...then I would have never started to talk to you because Adi was before you. I have also been very open...everyone knows about everyone else...and as soon as I find someone that I can see myself having a long term relationship with...I can see marrying....that will be it for me, no more talking to anyone else.
8. I cannot commit to a life long marriage to someone that I do not love. Yes, you might be able to fall in love multiple times in your life....but you cannot force yourself to love....so to start a marriage with someone just because it is a good transaction and hope that love comes later is a ridiculous notion to me. I know that you can be a great husband, a good provider....but if we don't have love...that means nothing to me. And a good provider and husband means a lot more to me than what you can physically provide....
9. I would never want you to be something that you are not. The person that you are should be what attracts me. You should not have to fight for anyone. I don't want you to fight for me....there is not a contest for my heart. My heart is not going to go to the winner of some competition. My heart is going to be given to the person that I love...for who they are and for what we are together. How do we know what we are together if the time and energy is not invested? If Money magazine is more important than trying to get to know each other....than you are definitely not the person for me. If you are only willing to invest yourself emotionally before marriage...than you are going to have a hard time finding a wife. Not many people have the same philosophy as you do of marriage....it sounds more like a business transaction...."we are good together because I make this much...you make this much....I can do this....you can do this...." and then learn to love each other after marriage....I want to marry my love....not marry and then force my love.
10. Yes, I do have a huge friend base...friends that are scattered all over the US and some in different countries....facebook statuses and blogs are how we stay in touch and stay connected with each other's lives. We can't be 100% involved with each other because of distance, etc....so this is how we all stay connected in this crazy busy world..... sorry if you don't understand that.
Now, as for adding you to my facebook page again......do you really think that is a good idea? I am very public with my life, my thoughts, etc..... It seems to bother you more than anything....is that what you want? I don't mind adding you back...but make sure it's what you actually want first.
Sonya"
He has apologized for acting out of anger and that he still would like to meet. But, here's the thing...he can't come here for another month or so because of a project at work. So, he's offered to buy my plane tickets and hotel for me to come and see him. Should I? What's your thoughts?
1 comment:
i think you should follow your heart. this guy sounds very analytical and factual. where's the romance? also, "hate" is a very strong word to use when describing your feelings regarding someone who may run late to work - or when someone doesn't take their job as seriously as he does. this seems to be a sign of immaturity or a lack of reasoning. should you fly out to denver? well, do you think you'll feel an obligation to this person if you do? i think you're already doing the right thing. if he wants to meet you, he should take the time out of HIS busy schedule to fly down here and meet you. i'm a little bothered by the way he wants to meet.... a true gentleman would display patience and go out of his way to meet you. you deserve nothing less than a true gentleman, in my opinion.
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